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I know how this sounds and how people might say it's because of my almost year-long isolation, but I swear it's real.
I no longer have blissful dreams, I have nightmares every night and wake up shaking around 03:00. Even though I don't have conversations with the being that haunts my dreams, I feel its presence.
And it does speak to me, just through visual symbolism. It tries to convince me to make a deal with it by making me dream about presents on my doorstep, for example. I wake up in a cold sweat after attempting to flee.
But now, after almost a year of performing the rituals I described in previous posts, it speaks to me while I'm awake. The synchronicities were already out of control, but this is so much more than that.
I can hear it. It whispers (or speaks softly) to me in my head. It sounds male.
For those wondering, I didn't stop taking psychedelics after completing the day's rituals, even though I no longer experience the being in that way. Perhaps because it can reach me more easily now.
I am not willing to make a deal with it, whatever it wants from me, I will not give it. My plan is to bypass this being and find the escape route from this reality.
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